When I started this blog, I dubbed it "Forgive and Let Live". This is one of my favorite sayings, although, I never really experienced the depth of this belief's capacity. Until now. Until I surrendered all of my woes, worries, anger, resentment....I didn't fully understand how forgiving and living, can change your world.
After over 6 years of a relationship with a man I thought I was to marry, it became clear to me that the relationship was in fact the exact opposite of what I needed. It dragged me to the darkest of places, ones that I hope I never see again. Then the reality of finding a new job, and leaving the company, my baby, that I had spent 6 years of building from blood, sweat and many a tears, hit me like a ton of bricks. Albeit, I had to continue working with him for several months to pay the bills, and endure extreme emotional abuse, the abuse I left the relationship because of. Never did I think that I could have such patience. But I'll tell you, that patience builds strength, if you remain in control over it. I had to move, twice, within a month. Leaving behind my beautiful home on dream property, amidst all of the serenities of life that I cherish. Everything in my life changed dramatically, within a matter of months. But the one thing that stayed constant was my commitment to find balance and above all else, to Forgive and Let Live. My resentment toward the man that I thought would never betray me took over for a while. The depression was like a plague that nothing could conquer. But the seedlings of positivity and reminders of what I DID have were just enough to dig me out of despair. I realized that I just needed to forgive him, forgive myself, forgive all of the people in the world that do wrong or taint the beauties of life. But at the same time, I realized that I needed to live, for me, and all that I desire to accomplish in this world aside from the risks.
The moment I chose to forgive, and let everything positive in my life, live, was the moment my entire world changed. I focused only on myself, on finding the job of my dreams, not settling. I stopped perusing facebook and being overcome with what others had, or were doing, and what I was not or didn't have. I forgave all the poor choices in my life, and the poor choices of others. I began living. Since that moment, I have had nothing but success flutter my life! I've been blessed with several clients to do marketing and business development consulting work. I've met some incredible people that have inspired me to push forward professionally without settling. I've received so many compliments and an uncanny amount of validation for who I am as a person, that I am truly humbled by it. My friends, oh my friends...each and every single one of you have been so supportive and so amazing, I can't thank you enough. And as of today, after grueling weeks of hard, haaard work, I am now an account manager for a brilliant advertising agency!!!! I didn't settle, I didn't wallow in my fears or worry, I breathed through it all, I LIVED!
I invite you to Forgive and Let Live, every day. Breathe through those moments of anxiety or fear. Remember, it's JUST a job interview, it's just a school exam, it's just a doctor's appointment, it's just a rough week at work, it just is what it is. Nothing more nothing less. Letting your head get the best of you just makes everything harder and many times even sabotages your desires. Let go of worrying about what could be or what you won't have if you don't get a job or don't pass your test, focus on getting that job and passing that test. Focus on the living part, not the fear part. Forgive all those in your life that have let you down, or those that have hurt you, above all else, forgive yourself. Move forward with the power of TODAY, of NOW, of the beautiful blessings you have in your life. No matter your trials and tribulations, you DO have so much to be thankful for.
I am testament to the power in Forgive and Let Live. Trust my experiences, have faith in this belief and push on. I promise that if you accept it completely, it will pay off in ways you can't even imagine! Forgive and Let Live my friends!
XOXO
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